I am 36/29/40, 5’3, and 143 pounds right now. In Feb. I was 37.5/31/42 and 162. You’d have to know al l my other measurements to see how losing 20 pounds has changed the overall size of my body.
I was wearing a size 12 (tight) to 14 (baggy). Now I’m wearing a size 10.
Either way, according to the Way Things Are, I’m still in the +size category. So there ya go.
I don’t think about it too much, except when it’s right in front of me.
I lost weight because I felt bad in my body before AND I felt bad about how I looked.
The sad part is, I’ve lost 20 pounds, and now it’s like a marathon; how much more can I lose, and how fast?
Once you do start thinking about it, it can consume you.
So, I get pix taken (the one here is part of a set), post them on facebook, have tons of comments show up telling my how great I look, and remember that I’m a smokin’ hot (almost) 40 year old. AND that most of the time I feel pretty good in my body at this weight, and for a while the beast is abated.
Some of the stories here make my heart sad - seeing women who are not large at all having the same body image issues we all have, or hearing the stories of the horrors women have experienced because of their size or shape - and many make me feel happy - seeing women who have bodies that they accept as lovely at whatever size they’re at.
And sadly, some make me think, “Wow, those are my measurements. Do I look that __________?” (Whatever the though may be at the moment) Or, “Wow, she’s tiny. If she feels bad about herself, what I am supposed to think about me?”
And this too is part of the whole issue; judging ourselves, judging each other, judging ourselves by judging each other, and judging others by judging ourselves.
Sometimes I talk about my body image issues, and then feel bad about it because I realize there’s a woman in the room who is larger than me. I wonder what my self-judgment has done to her self-esteem.
So, thanks ladies, for being courageous and confident. You are all that.
Find me at my facebook page: http://www.facebook.com/lasara.firefox.allen.mpnlp Or my website: http://www.lasaraallen.com, if you want to convo with me.
Peace, and love to all you beauties.
